Now, there is something to be said for a fear of the unknown. It's natural. Anytime you enter into a situation that is unfamiliar there will be a certain amount of fear. In this instance, however, the fear had taken on a whole new dimension. I had so much to do in my life, was this really all I would ok be with accomplishing? A healthy fear of death has always been a part of my life, but I spent that whole day praying, writing, pleading and ultimately resting in the knowledge that the God who had led me for
three years to study and advocate for these people in Darfur that I had never met would faithfully complete His work in my life. Just as He had opened the door for me to go into Darfur, He would fulfill His purpose in my following.
While it is true that God has absolute control over my life no matter where I am or what I am doing, there is a big difference between words and actions. I had said He was in control since I had given my life to following Christ, but when it came to possibly dying while following his call I wasn't so sure this is what I had signed up for. Death loomed so clearly, and I understood with greater clarity the reality of my salvation, wrestled with accepting that my life belonged to Christ, and ultimately I was able to rest with greater sweetness than I ever had before in the power and purpose of my Lord. I really like Jim Elliot's quote that "he is no fool to give up what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose."
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